One and done?

Happy 4th of July! Today Hubby has the day off and I'm not sure what we are going to do.

You might have been guessing from Monday's post that baby fever has been hanging around our house for some time. My pregnancy with Chase was easy. I want a belly again. Labor wasn't pretty or easy but I would do it again in a heartbeat. We want a big family. I've mentioned before that Chase is an attention whore and I feel bad having another one for him to share the spotlight with.

Then, I read this post by Lucy. For some reason this post made me want to stay a family of three.

Chase has been sick and I think is now teething. Isn't that always how it goes?! Hubs had a super busy week at work and had been out of town. We all had to adjust a little to having Daddy around again. Hubs just wanted to love on C and play but C wasn't really into it. We went to the park and Hubs got to see the terror that I have been dealing with every evening while trying to make dinner. C went to bed fine then around 9pm he woke up. I got him back to sleep and returned to RHOC and at 9:15 he was up again and would not go back to sleep.

We prefer to use cuddles instead of medicine if we can so we brought Chase into our bed. At 14 months old he is still a pretty big mama's boy. I was shocked that he rolled over to his Dad's side of the bed and wrapped his little arms around his neck. I seriously got a little teary!

Above was written on 6/24. Below was written on 7/2.

I caught baby fever so bad I wasn't cherishing my time with Chase. That post was a wake up call that I will be so happy if Chase ends up being our only child. The three of us fit pretty nicely in that bed and I need to cherish all these moments as a family of three in case we are blessed with another child.

I know in the post on Monday I said I have, "...been complaining on twitter...". I received an anonymous comment that said I shouldn't complain about not being pregnant with my second. They asked if I take into consideration that my readers may be struggling with having their first. Since this comment was anonymous I wasn't able to respond by email. Please know I welcome any and all comments. I love all the comments that I received on this post from people who have children, people that are trying to get pregnant, and people who have recently suffered a miscarriage. I was able to respond by email to all of these comments and none of them seemed offended.

I have read posts about people struggling to have their second and was surprised to read that it has a lot of the same heartache as the first time. It is one of those things that you can't really tell me how to feel or what to do if you aren't in the same boat. This is my blog and I will always be honest and I do think about my readers. I think most of my readers know I am not heartless.