Fear

This post is kind of inspired by the writers workshop prompts on Mama's Losin It http://www.mamakatslosinit.com/. Her prompts were inspired by a husband that lost his wife 27 hours after giving birth to their daughter and a woman who suffered a stroke and is now fighting to stay with her husband and family. I also follow a widow blogger at Keep Believing http://aboneill.blogspot.com/. I am terrified that something horrible like any of these stories could happen to my husband or I. As a child growing up I was never able to imagine myself grown up and I thought that meant I would die young. I don't know if it is normal for people to second guess their happiness like I do. Does anyone else worry their story won't get a happy ending?







It is a big scary world out there. I have friends who are dealing with their children having health issues. I have always thought about what I would do if we had trouble getting pregnant or keeping a pregnancy, but I have never thought about what if the child has health problems.







I have faith in God that keeps my anxiety about all of these things lower than it could be. So far he hasn't given me anything I couldn't handle and everything that was tough made me stronger. When you look at your blessings and the pretty easy road you have taken and compare it to others' tough roads, it is hard not to wonder when the other shoe will drop.





Working on some happier posts for the rest of this week.